Mommy Why Don't You Love Me

I composed this song close to the end of my time in Penang, before finally leaving for JB. This idea and the main phrase (Mommy, why don’t you love me?) had been pulling at my heart on and off for a long time. I finally sat down and fleshed out the lyrics and the melody in one morning, using the piano in 10-11-1 Desa U. Nicole Nordeman’s ‘Why’ was a strong inspiration for this composition, which should give you a feel of it.

The song is an anti-abortion piece, mainly appealing to the emotions. The heartbroken, unborn child’s cry of “What did I do wrong, mommy, that you don’t want me? Mommy, why don’t you love me?” My heart feels the sadness, the yearning and longing in the voice each time I reach the chorus.

If you would, get a guitar or sit at a piano, and play out the basic melody (I’ll some day put up a proper music sheet). ~ indicates that the note should be dragged longer. Each line of the song should also end and pause for a short while. Longer pause, instruments keep on playing after paragraphs. I’m sure that you could improve it in your own style.

Imagine this slow piece to soft tones of Yong Syn on piano, Kean’s sentimental strumming of guitar, Jon’s violin almost crying, and sung by Esther in her saddest lost little girl’s voice…

For all of God’s most precious children…

Mommy Why (Don’t You Love Me)

I lay asleep B B C D~~
Surrounded by your warmth D D C C B A
Surrounded by your closeness around me D D C C B A A E D B

And in my dreams B B C D~~
I longed to feel your touch D D C C B A
Longed to be held in arms that love me D D C C B A A E D B

And so I waited in peace E E F# G F# B E~
For the time when your smile would greet me B C D C B A E D B
Oh how I yearned for the day E E F# G F# B E
When you’d open your arms to meet me B C D C B A E D B

To have someone who loves me… B C D C G G A
Long so much for someone to love me… B C D C C G G G A~B~

[Chorus]
Mommy why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
What did I do wrong? B C D E D
Where did I go astray? B B C D E D
Tell me why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
How do I make things right? B B C D E D
How do I find my way? B B C D E D
Mommy why don’t you love me… E F# G F# B A G~F#~D~

High up above B B C D~
All the angels in heaven D D C C B A
They gathered all around to cheer me on D D C C B A A E D B

They sang to me B~ B~ C D~
Their hearts were filled with joy D D C C B A
A perfect melody was in their song D D C C B A A E D B

You’re going into the world E E F# G F# B E~
And you’ll be met with a smile to greet you B C D C B A E D B
You’ll bring such joy to her life E E F# G F# B E
You’ll find her arms open wide to meet you B C D C B A E D B

You’ll have someone who loves you… B C D C G G A
Longs so much, so much just to love you… B C D C C G G G A~B

[Chorus]
Mommy why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
What did I do wrong? B C D E D
Where did I go astray? B B C D E D
Tell me why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
How do I make things right? B B C D E D
How do I find my way? B B C D E D
Mommy why don’t you love me… E F# G F# B A G~F#~

[Bridge]
I want to laugh E E F# G
I want to run and play E E F# G A G
I long so much E E F# G
To see you smile my way E E F# G A G
I want to live G G A B
Just want to live my life, with you… G G A B C B A G~A~G~F#~D~

[Music bridge/solo]

I’ll never laugh E E F# G
I’ll never run and play E E F# G A G
I’ll never get E E F# G
To see you smile my way E E F# G A G
I’ll never live G G A B
I’ll never live my life, with you… G G A B C B A G~A~G~F#~D~

So mommy why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
What did I do wrong? B C D E D
Where did I go astray? B B C D E D
Tell me why don’t you love me? E F# G F# D D E
How do I make things right? B B C D E D
How do I find my way? B B C D E D
Mommy why, why don’t you love me… E F# F# G F# B A G~F#~D

Why? (whispered)